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[13 May 2012|08:41pm]
Just moved all of my fics that I consider fics over to my archive on AO3.

I'm not going to lie, being able to see how many people have viewed my fics, and yet not commented or left a kudos is making me super self-conscious about the quality.
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[17 Mar 2012|08:14pm]
Title: Hold Your Breath
Author: [info]qtlymakingnoise 
Rating: R
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
Summary: Brendon struggles with a crisis of faith.
Word Count: ~1600
Disclaimer: I own none of the people involved in this story, and none of it actually happened.
Warning: Minor breathplay, but it is not the focus of the story.
Author Notes: Much love to Tess, [info]relaxrelapsex, who betaed, and Aldous Huxley, who inspired me.


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[06 Feb 2012|08:26pm]
Title: Cadence
Author: [info]qtlymakingnoise 
Rating: PG
Pairing: alluded Ryan/Brendon
Summary: Spencer lives his life keeping the beat.
Word Count: 876
Disclaimer: I own none of the people involved in this story, and none of it actually happened.
Author Notes: Much love to Tess, [info]relaxrelapsex,
for doing a quick beta. She rocks.


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[05 Feb 2012|09:27pm]
Title: Inverse
Author: [info]qtlymakingnoise 
Rating: PG
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
Summary: There is black, and there is white, and there are places between the two.
Word Count: 574
Disclaimer: I own none of the people involved in this story, and none of it actually happened.
Author Notes: Much love to Tess, [info]relaxrelapsex,
who gave me help with a few lines that really made this worth it, and for giving me random numbers when I need her to. The prompt was Save it for Later by Harvey Danger.

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fic: Your Mouth is Wine [26 Dec 2011|01:06pm]
Title: Your Mouth is Wine
Author: [info]qtlymakingnoise 
Rating: PG
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
Summary: On Christmas, Ryan can't help missing Brendon.
Word Count: ~3000
Disclaimer: I own none of the people involved in this story, and none of it actually happened.
Author Notes: Much love to Tess, relaxrelapsex, for pushing me to write this, and then giving me feedback once I did. And to Ryan and Vicky for documenting their holiday hooliganry.



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[12 Jun 2011|01:55am]
ahahahahah.Collapse )
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[24 Apr 2011|03:36pm]
Wondering.Collapse )
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Fighting the Flow [12 Mar 2011|11:27pm]

Title: Fighting the Flow
Author: qtlymakingnoise 
Rating: R (non-graphic sexual content)
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon (Brendon/Sarah, Brendon/Shane, Brendon/Audrey, Ryan/Jac, Ryan/Z, other minor pairings)
Summary: Brendon is stubborn and Ryan is confused; the push and pull of power in a dysfunctional relationship, and the difficulties involved.
Word Count: ~9000
Disclaimer: I own none of the people involved in this story, and none of it actually happened.
Author Notes: Loads of thanks to ivesia19 for being a makeshift beta and looking over this for me. Written for the Album Anticipation at rydenrevival.


 

When Brendon thinks about it, he's really not surprised that he and Ryan have had such a tumultuous relationship.Collapse )


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[03 Sep 2010|12:04am]
The Ryan/Brendon fic idea that ate my brain. Jesus.Collapse )
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[16 Aug 2010|03:17am]
Transparency. (Original story, with themes on body image and bulimia. `1000 words.)Collapse )
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[04 Aug 2010|02:34am]
Ryan/Brendon (Or ambiguous). I asked you if you loved me, and you said no. I didn't believe you.Collapse )
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[23 Jul 2010|09:05pm]
So, I wrote this when I woke up from a nap and the first paragraph ran through my head. Don't know if it's good, as I've only read through this once, and I haven't proofed or edited. Figured I'd get it out, then edit and maybe post to communities after I have more energy.


Ouchy Ryan/Brendon piece. Rated R.Collapse )
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fic: (Die Tonight) [20 Apr 2010|07:38pm]
Title: (Die Tonight)
Author: qtlymakingnoise
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: R (Sexual content, language.)
Summary: Ryan is young, but old enough to know better. He knows that this, this entire thing with Brendon, it's a bad idea. It could endanger the band, ruin his relationship with one of his best friends; everything is at stake. He knows better.
Disclaimer: Don't own anything, and this also never happened.  Seriously.  No, really.  It didn't.  Lyrics belong to The Young Veins.  Title taken from Young Veins (Die Tonight).
Notes: Looking for a beta, I guess, so this has only been edited by myself and the computer.  But I like it!


Is "young" a word for dumb; a word for fun?Collapse )
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[17 Apr 2010|10:36am]
From Halley to me (In an untagged facebook note): You were my best lady friend for such a long time. I came out to you, I spend hours curled up on that double-mattress hellhole of a bed talking about nothing. We screamed. We flailed. We loved like the world was going to end when the love ended. We watched lifetime movies like it was going out of style. I'm sorry that that ended, and miss having somebody like you in my life. You were a truly fabulous person.

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[29 Mar 2010|11:15pm]
If you read it like beat poetry, it's kind of every type of awesome:

“If I could take back that moment, I would. I wouldn’t have let there be a pause. I would have told you the truth. I would have looked you in the eye and told you I didn’t love her. Told you that if she asked me to take her back that I would have said no. Told you that I haven’t thought twice about moving out or away with her. Told you that you mean more to me than she ever will.

“I would have taken your hand and told you that I cared about you. That if you would ask me, I would move away with you in a heartbeat. That, besides my son, you were the greatest person I had ever met. Told you that I loved your eyes and your smile. I loved your wit and your charm. I loved the way you looked at me like I was crazy, but always laughed with me instead of at me. I loved the way you ran your fingers through my hair when we kissed. And how you always took care of me first. I loved the way you closed your eyes when we made love, but made sure to open them when I came.

“I would have told you that when I spend time with you, I feel important. And the seconds we are away feels like days, weeks months. I would have told you how much you mean to me and how much I care about you. I would have given you my heart.

“I know why you did it. I know why you ran away, and I don’t blame you one bit. And as scared and worried as you are, I am that too. I will show you every day how much you mean to me and how much I want to be with you and love you and make you mine.

“I may be young, but I know that you are the one person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I know those are big words to say. And I know we barely know each other. But I know that deep down, that is how I feel. I can’t stand living another day without you in my life. You are what makes me whole.”
-Lucky 13 by hangon2aword
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[12 Mar 2010|09:08pm]
Cut be a very short original story, or a PATD Brendon/Ryan. Either way, it's rated G, and I don't like this as much as I've liked the last few things I've written.Collapse )
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[06 Mar 2010|09:44pm]
Short original story.Collapse )
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[30 Jan 2010|08:44pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Bit of original fiction, short and sweet. I like it.Collapse )

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[26 Jan 2010|01:31am]
"We are broken boys from broken families who somehow managed to come together. We are late night car rides, back seats of Volvos, and we are windows down no matter how cold. We are products of our past, making our future, but we are living for what we have right now. We are McDonald’s and French fries and dollar menu stomachaches, gallons of Mountain Dew and shared drinks and shared songs. We are music, lyrics, feelings and sounds. We are guitars and strings and frustration and tears, broken strings, broken words, broken souls fixed by songs from people who know where we’ve been. We are fathers and memories and memories of fathers, we are not forgetting, always holding on, only letting go of things that shouldn’t matter. We are from families that taught not by example and instead let us learn the hard way, but for that we are still thankful. We are thankful to have learned at all. We are long walks and long rivers and long silences with long thoughts that lead to short words that mean everything. We are entwined fingers, entwined hearts, connected eyes and one soul. We are living for each other. We are best friends with best friends and two of four people who still feel like kings. We are dances and matching shoes and I don’t want the world to see me, I just want you to know who I am. We are making fun of movies and falling in love all over again over every song from our youth. We are cigarette scars and torn up fingers and the kisses against them, permanent memories of pain that has long since left. We are the future’s souvenirs of how things used to be, and we are examples of strength and dependence and I just need you more than I can say. We are notebooks and writing and emotion on paper, we are typed conversations telling everything, teasing us with distance. We are all night phone calls, sometimes fun, sometimes a lifeline. We are our hands, we hold us together, we are the strength I have to say this: we are our world. Our world is beautiful."
- Infinite, Sometimes by fullcollapse
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[13 Jan 2010|10:39pm]
Okay, so. My computer has been freaking out on me lately. So, I've been super careful to save my text documents twice, three times over, just to be sure.
But, I guess that's not enough. Because my computer crashed, and I guess it reverted back to a about two weeks ago.
Because twenty pages of my NaNoWriMo book have vanished. Off the face of the earth. Just, gone. Twenty pages.
At an integral part, right at the climax, where it's the most heartwrenching to write, where I've been tearing up as I write it because it's really fucking hard.
Just, lost.

I don't have the heart to finish it, I don't have the heart to write it again, and find the words and do that again. I don't.

And it sucks, so, so, hard because this is the most important thing that I've ever written. The most involved, the longest, the best.

These characters, they are my people. These are people in my head who just had a chunk of their life erased. Fully formed people. And it hurts to say goodbye.

I had hopes to finish it soon, I know how it is supposed to end, I know how I wanted to get there, I have some rough outline somewhere. And I want to finish it, so, so bad.

But I don't have the strength. God.
I can't stop crying, which is kinda pathetic. But, I mean. It's just gone.
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